I love my mirror. For the low price of $5, I purchased a mirror that I'm not afraid to look in. This mirror has been super kind to me. It has made me look smaller than I really am, and because of that, I didn't think I was as bad off as I am... And then I saw my photograph. Needless to say, it was not kind.
Travis and I are starting a new workout program, and we decided to take pictures of ourselves (frontal, side, and back) to see the progress. Well, I uploaded these picture a bit ago, and I am truly appalled. I'm so embarrassed and ashamed that I let myself get this way.
Looking at my body in this fashion was so painful, yet it was something I needed to see. The reason I say this is if I keep thinking that I'm not that bad off, I'm never going to change. Seeing the pounds on the scale was one thing, but seeing photos of myself wearing a sports bra and capris was the real wake up call.
I can't keep doing this to myself. I'm only 24 and I should be living my life to the fullest. I shouldn't always wonder what people are thinking about me when I go in public. I should have a fulfilling relationship with my husband, but I can't because of my size. I want to be a mother, but because of my size, I have PCOS, and I can't conceive a child. I want to have an adventurous life, but my weight prohibits me from so. I can't even ride a rollercoaster anymore.
You know, I can't believe I'm saying this, but thank God for those pictures. They may be ugly, but they have given me a very necessary push in the right direction. Who knows, I may even print a copy to put on my favorite mirror so that I may never loose sight of the lesson that I have learned today.
Dusty and I did the same thing when we started P90X last year. Yikes! I think it's about time I did it again. I need some motivation.
ReplyDeleteYeah, we're going to try P90X. I know it's more for people who are relatively fit, but I'm going to try it anyway. By the looks of it, it's going to kick my butt.
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